Facing my new reality…

‘Be kind to yourself’ they said.  ‘Let time do it’s thing’ they said.  ‘You won’t get over it but you will learn how to live with it’ they said. Today is the first time alone since the funeral.  My brother is winging his way back to the airport, my Mum is at home, my husband…

Wonderful, wonderful you….

How ironic that only a few weeks ago I wrote a piece about grief and I have now started my own walk down this lonely and dark road.  I am embarking upon something for the first time without you. The cloak has well and truly wrapped itself tightly around me.  It’s totally encompassing and sometimes…

Can 10,000 steps a day stop 10,000 wrinkles?

Recently I’ve been thinking a great deal about age and the ageing process. Simply put, I have never felt my current age however this year I approached a milestone year (the big 5-0) and my mind has started wandering around this subject. Taking little tip toes to start with but now I find myself focussing…

Trinny London… a new ‘must have’

If you haven’t discovered Trinny London (of Trinny and Susannah ‘What not to wear’ fame) you are missing a huge trick. Trinny has launched her own make up brand and it is second to none and I have fallen so hook, line and sinker that I really must encourage you all to take a look….

The empty room….

This Friday we have an anniversary. It will be exactly eleven weeks since we moved into our new house and wow hasn’t the time flown by? When we first got married we lived in my small apartment. That little home had been my sanctuary for over ten years. It had been a haven, my oasis…

Grief…

It is guaranteed to happen to us all many times and each time it does we think that the next time will be different but it never gets easier. It’s like a heavy woollen coat that slowly drowns us and as the skies get darker and the rains pour the coat gets heavier and heavier…

Betsy

It’s been a while since I wrote anything but my blogging mojo is back with a vengeance!  I have missed this little creative outlet that I found and so my first one is going to be all about the lovely Betsy! Betsy is gorgeous.. inside and out.  She has a lot of beautiful qualities and…

Well, well, well….

So here we are… and now I find myself writing about something I didn’t think would ever happen to me again. I finally found my one true love, my soul mate, my better half. It was quite by accident and through a very good friend of mine who happened to suggest that we might get…

What this really means to me after all….

Today I did something that I’m not usually prone to do.  I got dressed in front of a long mirror.  As a middle aged woman who ‘feels’ 30 on a good day (perhaps 45 on a bad one) it is a complete shocker to see oneself looking very middle aged and somewhat tired.  But what…

Raindrops are falling on my head… or are they?

August… what I have come over almost half a century, to regard as summer is upon us now.  We typically should be enjoying brilliant sunshine, people sitting outside enjoying a quiet glass of something chilled, swimming in the sea, children having donkey rides, playing on the beach and lots of laughter all around.  Instead I…

My very own little oasis of calm

Recently my life appeared to have become cluttered and far too full.  In every sense of the word, it seemed I was overwhelmed by ‘stuff’ and I found myself day after day just mentally holding my hands in the air whilst screaming ‘help world, I need to get off for a moment’. So when an…

I love my brain…wonky or not

Thirty-one years ago my legs turned blue… I kid you not, one minute I was feeling fine and the next I had blue legs.  Ever happened to you?  I hope not.  After a mad dash to a London hospital, countless tests, horrible MRI machines, EEG wires I was completely consumed with an overwhelming sense of…